‘Now even rats will jump this ship,”

Well how do you do?
Put a kiss on the cheek
It’s been a while
So I’ll just beg, borrow
And steal all your time
We’ll call it dignified
Well now it all seems to be cut and dried
So I know which way to run
You’re tired, my love
I feel the same

Well take it from me
What else could you do?
Where do you get off?
And how can I get there, too?
All your time
We’ll call it dignified
Well now it all seems to be cut and dried
So I know which way to run
You’re tired, my love
I feel the same

You’ll never come back
My god, can’t you see that
I know which way to run
You’re tired, my love
I feel the same
The Lebanon won’t speak my name

Well everyone’s saying rise and shine
It might not be true and that’s just fine
‘Cause I know which way to run
You’re tired, my love
I feel the same
The Lebanon won’t speak my name
Now even rats will jump this ship
Just give me some piece of mind
‘Cause I…

“For you, I could work,”

How could you make me feel like this?

I thought this feeling was lost. I thought I was never due to find you in this lifetime.

I’ve spent my life searching. My own mother asked me a few years ago, what it was that I was searching for?

I knew I was searching for someone. I didn’t know it was you. I didn’t know that I would feel this complete with you.

We fit so perfectly with each other. I could never leave. Not now, not now that I’ve found you.

You’re the one. You’re finally here. Finally. Friend, lover, family, all in one.

And I’m scared.

Cheerleader

I’ve had good times
With some bad guys
I’ve told whole lies
With a half smile
Held your bare bones
With my clothes on
I’ve thrown rocks
Then hid both my arms

I don’t know what good it serves
Pouring my purse in the dirt

But I-I-I-I-I don’t wanna be your cheerleader no more
I-I-I-I-I don’t wanna be your cheerleader no more

I’ve played dumb
When I knew better
Tried too hard
Just to be clever
I know honest thieves
I call family
I’ve seen America
With no clothes on

But I-I-I-I-I don’t wanna be a cheerleader no more
I-I-I-I-I don’t wanna be a cheerleader no more

I don’t know what I deserve
But for you I could work

‘Cause I don’t wanna be a cheerleader no more
I don’t wanna be a cheerleader no more
I don’t wanna be a cheerleader no more
I don’t wanna be a dirt eater no more
I don’t wanna be a dirt eater no more
I don’t wanna be a cheerleader no more

‘Grey stars beneath the moon’

Whatever I do will never be enough for you.

Nearly dying even was not enough.

Taking in insults to my self-esteem and letting myself be treated the way I was for you – even that isn’t enough.

Going against my family.

Distance.

The lack of support.

The multiple emotional stab wounds into the back.

Money.

The reluctance and hesitance to progress.

I’m finally done. You will know that this is what you’ve done to me. The world knows what you’ve done now.

And nobody is on your side.

You have no one. Because you shunned the only person who bothered to give a flying fuck about you.

You’ll get what you deserve. Eventually.

Within

This is for you. It says it all.

There are so many things that I don’t understand
There’s a world within me that I cannot explain
Many rooms to explore, but the doors look the same
I am lost, I can’t even remember my name

I’ve been, for sometime, looking for someone
I need to know now
Please tell me who I am
[2x]

There are so many things that I don’t understand
There’s a world within me that I cannot explain
Many rooms to explore, but the doors look the same
(where are the locks to try the key?)
I am lost, I can’t even remember my name
(and I wonder why)

I’ve been, for sometime, looking for someone
I need to know now
Please tell me who I am
[4x]